First Times

That was the first time I cried seeing one couple vowed under oath that they’re going to love and care for each other for the rest of their lives until death do them part. I didn’t know what happened to me, didn’t know why I should cry on stranger’s wedding. I don’t think one should make a pure vow like that if one can not see one’s future. Perhaps that is because I never really believe in a true marriage or a true love. Anyway, that happened on last week’s wedding I worked on.

You know, for the first time since I started to join in, I liked that groom pretty much..:- ) he’s got the face that I really love! I mean not that kind of handsome, but something about his face that attracted me. But I was glad I took part in his wedding and of course I wished him happiness ( what else ? I barely know this guy, just liked his attractive face after all )

And for the first time I rejected one guy’s feeling through sms. This guy wrote to me last week : “our relationship is boring” ( I was shocked because .. gosh, since when we ever had a relationship??? ) He is the same person who asked me to go to his house and meet with his family ( I had no idea how could he had the feeling that I was his girlfriend ) He is the same person who has no guts to tell me his feeling and had to sms it to my mobile. I’d not appreciate it at all! ( frankly, I wouldn’t know what to do if he told me face to face, I’d be freaked out ) I didn’t reply back that day until today coz my colleague using my mobile wrote to him and when he wrote back “ if you want to know me better, we should meet up more often “ . You know, I couldn’t let this misunderstanding keep going on, so I wrote back to explain that I just want to be friends with him.

Meanwhile, me and Ua went to apply for Japan’s visa last Monday and we will know the answer next Monday. It’s a 10 months plan, 10 months of waiting so whatever it is, we don’t care that much anymore. It’s usually not my character waiting for so long to do one thing…let’s just see…