Jealousy? Envy?

Vera called me at midnight last night after I sent her one sms asking her whether she’s coming to Jakarta this month. We ended up talking around over the cell phones for about 30 minutes. She complained people in her surrounding who are really “bothering” whenever she wears or has something new ( particularly in her company ). She also got some bad words going around about her behavior of going out at nights often. I know her and I believe she‘s not that kind of person. She’s born rich and beautiful, surely she has all the potentials to dress up and meeting new people. That’s the problem with the people around her ( especially girls ). Somehow I feel a bit pity for her that she has to live on it ( fortunately, she’s able to enjoy life and set a positive mind on it ). Accept what life can offer you. Go girl !

It made me wondering whether I ever envy her that way. Thinking back to those times in China, we’re good friends and yes, even at those times I noticed that guys set eyes for her and I don’t think I ever have any uncomfortable feeling whenever we’re around. Good !

Funny, I always tell myself ( and most of the time, prove it out ) that I won’t envy or feel jealous about other people. If they’re above me, then I just take as their lucks but not my loses. Then, this girl showed up. None of her life I ever like ( even the character ) except for her opportunities of traveling around. But pointing back, if I lived in a developed country with a high salary that could cover up the traveling expenses twice a year, I’d also get the same opportunities. Then, it really consoles me that I shouldn’t feel jealous about it ( frankly, I am very lucky enough been everywhere around the world so far ). I think most of people won’t even have chances like I do, I am very grateful of my current life. Yeah !