Upside-Down
Life has been a bit of stressful at the office. No, I am not talking about the loads of works I usually would have at the end of month. As a matter of fact, I don¡¦t have much works to do at all. There you go. You see, for almost two weeks, the factory has been actively non-productive at all. The reason? The police came and sealed it. The worse is it was on television and things got worsen. No, it won¡¦t be closed down. It takes lots of money (and probably more times) but I won¡¦t be jobless. At least not now. After all, I will quit before November (but I won¡¦t be happy if anything worse happens to my company during this time). All I need is just another 6 months to get my money fits to my further plans. I¡¦ve never wanted to work long in one company especially not in this kind of company even though the salary is satisfying. Hah!
The same stressful thing is happening in my love life. I have been asking myself if I should give myself a second chance or probably I am just out of my mind. Should I blame myself if I am starting to fall in love again (with someone from the past)? Would the feelings start to grow again when you seem that you can talk just about everything to that person? The fact is I am also protecting myself from getting hurt (or maybe getting rejected) if I go further. ? Somehow I am asking myself whether this feeling is real, considering I like to change so fast. Am I sure that I still like him that much or because I still can¡¦t find yet someone who knows me that well?
Perhaps the problem with me is I am living in my past and future. It seems like my system doesn¡¦t work for my present.
At this point of my life, I¡¦d love to have a long-distance relationship instead of being seen everywhere as a couple. I am not saying I¡¦d like to do things behind his back. Not that sort of thing, of course. It¡¦s just that in some ways, like when going out with your gals or do shopping (I¡¦d prefer buying things on my own instead of having a guy standing beside, it gives me awkward feelings. Really). Of course, when it comes to dining out, I¡¦d like a companion, a good companion (maybe that gives me a reason that having a guy would be great).
Life has been a bit of stressful at the office. No, I am not talking about the loads of works I usually would have at the end of month. As a matter of fact, I don¡¦t have much works to do at all. There you go. You see, for almost two weeks, the factory has been actively non-productive at all. The reason? The police came and sealed it. The worse is it was on television and things got worsen. No, it won¡¦t be closed down. It takes lots of money (and probably more times) but I won¡¦t be jobless. At least not now. After all, I will quit before November (but I won¡¦t be happy if anything worse happens to my company during this time). All I need is just another 6 months to get my money fits to my further plans. I¡¦ve never wanted to work long in one company especially not in this kind of company even though the salary is satisfying. Hah!
The same stressful thing is happening in my love life. I have been asking myself if I should give myself a second chance or probably I am just out of my mind. Should I blame myself if I am starting to fall in love again (with someone from the past)? Would the feelings start to grow again when you seem that you can talk just about everything to that person? The fact is I am also protecting myself from getting hurt (or maybe getting rejected) if I go further. ? Somehow I am asking myself whether this feeling is real, considering I like to change so fast. Am I sure that I still like him that much or because I still can¡¦t find yet someone who knows me that well?
Perhaps the problem with me is I am living in my past and future. It seems like my system doesn¡¦t work for my present.
At this point of my life, I¡¦d love to have a long-distance relationship instead of being seen everywhere as a couple. I am not saying I¡¦d like to do things behind his back. Not that sort of thing, of course. It¡¦s just that in some ways, like when going out with your gals or do shopping (I¡¦d prefer buying things on my own instead of having a guy standing beside, it gives me awkward feelings. Really). Of course, when it comes to dining out, I¡¦d like a companion, a good companion (maybe that gives me a reason that having a guy would be great).
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